So I’ve been having a bit of anxiety, you see now that my Words of Wisdom have been converted into an official blog, that is (by the way) accessible to anyone – it’s kinda scary.
I have a whole new set of emotions going on, from uncertainty, to nervousness, to doubt. When I had the comfort of my small e-mail group, it was nice and safe, I chose who would receive the information and when they received it, whether they wanted to or not! And now I have to rely on others to want to take the time to read it for themselves and actually enjoy it and come back for more.
I never thought I would have these types of emotions but, after all, these are my own personal thoughts, what I write here is not just something I’ve pulled out of a book but something I’ve pulled from my heart. It can be frightening, that is, being so open and vulnerable and not knowing what people are going to think.
I guess this is the very thing I write about, pushing out of your comfort zone, dealing with the fear and moving forward in spite of it all. No one is immune from these feelings, just because I write about them and want to help other women overcome them – I myself must go through it as well.
It would be so easy to back out of this blog and revert back to the comfort of my e-mail group or to just quit all together, but what good would that do myself and everyone else out there in need of the tons of oh-so-important inspiration I provide (at least that’s how I like to see it.) I do this not for money or for acknowledgment but because it’s what feels right, it’s what makes me smile, and it’s what could possibly make a small difference somewhere else.
I guess this is a valuable lesson and example, not only for myself as I deal with these ‘growing pains’ but also for you – the women out there struggling with similar emotions – no one is EXEMPT – just know that these feelings are perfectly normal. I’m learning that when you’re comfortable and content, that’s when you should worry, because it’s there, in the midst of the un-comfortableness that you begin to expand, stretch and grow.
If I threw in the towel now, who knows what great things ahead I’d miss out on, who knows how many great women I would never get to meet, or whose day wouldn’t be made just a little bit better – maybe none at all but I’ll take my chances.
To me, this is more important then some feelings that tend to constantly deceive me anyways, so the H-E-double-hockey-sticks (as my step-son would say) with them. I can only hope that if you’re on this blog, that you find the information as uplifting and encouraging as intended and if not, then that’s okay too, I’m sure there’s something else out there for you. I’m not for everyone and everyone’s not for me and I’m okay with that.
So ladies, I am here to stay and hopefully will continue to help Women Overcome their Weaknesses in some small way. In starting this, back in November 2011 I had no idea it would blossom into what it has today and I never even foresaw putting it out there for the world to see but World – here I am.
I have no idea where this journey will lead but I’m definitely along for the ride…
I’d like to share one of my favorite quotes:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
― Marianne Williamson, Return to Love
I’d love to know I’m not going through these feelings alone, if you are or have gone through something similar I’d love to hear about it in the comments below. Let us know how you dealt with your growing pains.