It never gets easy, celebrating your child’s birthday at a cemetery–that never gets easy. Especially, on a milestone birthday like today; Aryanna would be 15 years old. 

I remember the day she was born, the nurses rolling her into my room and swiftly disappearing.  I remember looking at this 8lb. 12 oz. tiny human and thinking to myself, “What do I do now?”

Funny…I asked this very same question the day she went to be with Lord, “What do I do now?”

I try hard to fight back all of the emotions and “what ifs” set ablaze and clamoring at the gate, like 100 thoroughbred horses, waiting to stampede over my heart.

I sit under a giant tree whose leaves provide refuge from the smoldering summer sun. I gaze at the multitude of headstones lying in the ground. I think of what their lives were like, who is missing them, and whether they are face to face with the Lord?

It’s a tranquil place here. I’ve spent many a day watering the grass with my tears and pleading with God to give me answers, but not today.

Today, no answers are needed. 

There is nothing I ask of God, instead I give. I give Him my heart and He keeps the stampede at bay. Like this giant tree, He provides shelter and refuge. 

“Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.” Psalms‬ ‭91:1‬ ‭(NLT‬‬)

The tears that were shed have brought forth a harvest. There is now peace in my soul and hope in my heart. (Tweet this)

I respond to God like Job did in Job 42:5, “My ears had heard of you but now my eyes have seen you.”

What about you, can you say the same?

Can you say that you see the Lord? Can you see Him through the thick of the fog like a beacon of light to your lost soul? Is He your shelter in the storm?

We may not have the all answers but we do have the perfect promises of God and that is enough. (Tweet this)

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 Dear friends,

If you are suffering through life, know that Jesus suffered so you don’t have to. If you have a soul full of mourning, empty it out before the Lord and be filled up with Him. Take refuge and find strength in Him. (Psalm 46:1)

Thank you letting me share an intimate part of my soul. Aryanna’s life was short in number years but long in number of lives she touched. To read more about the impact Aryanna left behind, visit wwww.AryannasLaw.com

Thanks for visiting. Please share with someone who may be mourning their way through life. Let them know there is joyous hope awaiting. 

God bless. 
Anita Marie